Lisa Acor Laurel knows firsthand the necessity of letting go of relationships that aren't working--letting go and moving on to mystery, adventure, and fulfillment. In this memoir, she narrates her escape from codependency and an abusive relationship and how she found healing and self-discovery through her faith and trust in God.
Love in the Gardens of Macantar delivers a series of personal journal entries chronicling Laurel's journey from codependency, addiction, self-pity, and blame to a life of happiness, contentment, and taking responsibility for her actions. It captures her progress through one year of healing, and it sheds light on Laurel's inner-self, the great significance of her journey, and how she found her true passion in gardening.
Inspiring and uplifting, Laurel's testimony offers hope for a prosperous, productive, and fulfilling life after leaving an abusive relationship. Realizing that happiness is not a luxury, it is a responsibility; Love in the Gardens of Macantar shows there is a new beginning after the end.
This is the last night before Seth leaves for Europe. He will be gone for two months. This is my chance to break free. He may know that this is coming, or he may not. I have had my last lash of abuse. No more sleepless nights, or too much sleeping, or feeling guilt, anxiety, anguish, disgust, rage, self-loathing, him-loathing, loneliness, fear, hope he’ll change, hope I’ll change, hope God will intervene, suicidal thoughts, homicidal thoughts. No more thinking, Will he call? Should I call? Who can I talk to? Who will listen? Who will understand? No more feeling confused, embarrassed, ashamed, frustrated, unfocused, sick, jealous, suspicious, insecure, inadequate, angry with everyone, angry with myself, angry with him, angry with God.
This is the last night. A friend sent me a poem that spoke of healing. It came at the right time.
I consulted the ancient Rune stones. They said the Universe supports my decision.
I opened the Bible, and a phrase caught my eye: “Why are you wasting this precious oil on his head?”
This is the time. The veil has parted. I must walk through or be forever lost in a cycle of harsh negativity. I will smell his body’s scent tonight for the last time as he sits near me—the scent that always pulls me back to him with a mother’s maternal feeling, the need to protect him like he is a child, not a grown man.
After tonight, my heart won’t leap, and my stomach won’t churn over every time I hear a car in the driveway. My phone won’t ring with his number. Oh, a pang of reminiscence—or is it fear or guilt? I need a rest. No more.
© Excerpt from Love in the Gardens of Macantar: A Spiritual Journey of Healing from Codependency and Relationship Addition.
What you can gain from this codependency ebook if you are in need of healing codependency and a relationship addition…
-
Ways to love yourself.
-
Permission to move away from harmful situations without being "dis-loyal".
-
How to embrace a closer and more trusting relationship with God/Spirit, however you understand who or what God is.
-
Joy for living! Life is to be enjoyed. Loving life can be a more constant state of mind than drama and stress.
Additional Product Details
Format: PDF; 74 pages
About the Author
 Lisa Acor Laurel has held a CASAC certification in New York State and attended the New York Institute of Chinese Medicine to study acupuncture. Today, she owns Sacred Spaces Organic Gardening, building labyrinths and meditation gardens. Laurel lives on Long Island with her two dogs and her son.
|
|
